This blog is due for screening since a long long time! Well, the author of this blog will like to take this opportunity to announce that this blog will be closed to public eyes from next month onwards, thanks for all your support guys!

Anyway, this may be the last blog I might be writing as I feel I haven't got the time to faithful update this blog so I decided to save the server capacity and delete the account! :(

Today, it has been a disturbing day for me! But my joy is in the Lord :D

Well, I started off my day around 630 a.m and went for my long-awaited badminton marathon... Played fewer games then usual as I felt the need to preserve my arm for the rest of the week as I feel that my arm has yet to recover completely.

Anyway, I didn't played till I drop, left the badminton court around 1030 and went back home for a hefty breakfast... I had three eggs, three yummy hash-brown with grape jam, a glass of fruit juice, a plate of salad, as well as serving of salmon on biscuits... i guess that's all :X

I went to take a shower and was preparing to go for work when i received invitation to meet a net friend of mine. Anyway, i guess we didn't manage to meet each time so this time is no exception... :( I could come to the conclusion that she wasn't that eager to meet me after all... What else can i descibe my feelings? disappointed!

anyway, i went ahead and reported for work, had a great time praising god while doing my job... ended work around 630pm... by this time, fatigue has began to settle in as i had a long day. was feeling a little hungry as well, so decided to get myself a milo...

Talking about the drink machine, it cheated me of my fourty cents... anyway, i was too tired to do anything about it as i just had plain water instead... :(

i left the workplace and along my way home, i witness something really sad! I witness a couple breaking up :(

i was noticing the couple from afar and though they were discussing where to have dinner, but as i proceed on, i realised that the girl was holding a ring in her hand and trying to return the ring to the guy. The guy's eyes were red with tears and was asking in madrian what has done to deserve this. This has a great impact on my spirit! I was saddened.

I began to wonder why such things happens and i came up with some interesting revelations... I began to realise that break-ups are meant to hurt and were NEVER designed to be sweet! as i ponder on, i learnt that there will always be something that holds a relationship... That reason is the same reason that started the relationship.

if a relationship started because of the "feeling", that when the "feeling" is gone, so will the relationship.. but when a relationship is built upon love, it will be far from gone... for love grows, builds upon each other, trust, for love gives!

And i realised that for my past relationships, it was the "feeling" that made me made the mistake of leading the girls on... since then, i have yet to commit myself into another relationship!

anyway, i was feeling much better by the time i got home and was feeling hungry, so i went and ate my dinner and went out with my mum for a walk... was discussing with my mum about christianity and was asking her how many souls have she saved for the Lord and my mum told me many touching stories...

Hmmm, at the point of writing, i think i miss xiao zhu a lot... didn't managed to chat with her yesterday as she was feeling a little moody and thought it was be a better idea to allow her to cool off first ... hehe

Let me tell you more about this xiao zhu... for those that don't know her... * hmm, i hear protest from xiao zhu*

To me, xiao zhu is a sweet girl! She was almost there for me for every catastrophe that happened to me since the beginning of the year, when i fell into depression, when i broke up, when i injured myself, she was there to comfort me, to soothe the pain, to provide moral if not physical support!

However, i still feel that xiao zhu is someone special, in the sense that she doesn't really like to express her affections outright.. rather, she prefer to use the inverse to hint of her care and concern...

I guess that's all i should write about her, otherwise, i might not live to tell the rest of the story... haha... hope to chat with her tonight!

oh, for all the faithful readers of this blog, i was once again like to apologise for the closing of this blog... perhaps if someone could make me change my mind... Hmmm... until then, love you all!